Kevin on Earth - R.I.P.

[Mkaos]

It is with a very sad heart that I write this, but Kevin Cosby, better known to most sentries as GetMeOut, passed away on Thursday evening. Though I know some of us felt that this was a very real possibility, I know that we all had hopes for a different explanation for his sudden absence on the forums.

I happened to reach his father who was at Kevin's apartment collecting some of his favorite things and reflecting on the life his son had been building. We spoke for a good long time, I think he enjoyed having the opportunity to talk about Kevin. He's extremely proud of his son and, it was very obvious when I was talking to him, just where Kevin got his passion and humor. I could hear Kevin's anger, frustration, and pure love for life in his dad's stories. I was a bit taken back by it all and, at times, it felt like I was talking to Kevin.

The family was notified of his passing early Friday morning which, at least, gave me some peace that he hadn't been there for some time. They've made arrangements for a private memorial at a beach where Kevin and his family spent much of their summers. His father passed on a story about a young Kevin building a model of himself in the sand that was the full width of the beach and declaring to his dad that it was "better than Heaven, it's Kevin on Earth." They knew then that they had a handful and it seems to give them some peace that they'll be releasing his ashes there.

I know that some of you will be concerned about accessing the files on Kevin's computer and, though we didn't speak of it specifically, it will be at least a few weeks before they clear out Kevin's apartment. They would like some time to adjust to the loss before dealing with all the business that goes with death and they will be spending that time at the beach where they have so many happy memories.

I will keep this post open to comments for those of us that would like to remember Kevin by sharing thoughts and memories that we have on them, but I do ask that we keep it respectful. Suicide is a personal choice and it often leaves those left behind angry at that choice.

And, please, if you are considering suicide, please seek help. Kevin's father and I are both struggling with the fact that he didn't reach out to us, as I'm sure many of you are. No matter how hopeless it feels and how determined you are, it's good to talk it out with someone. If you aren't comfortable sharing with a friend, please contact the National Hopeline Network at 1(800)SUICIDE.
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[WolfHawk]

[Obtusitivity]

MOTHER FUCKER

i'm sorry, but i've never dealt with this sort of thing in anything approaching a muture or constructive manner.

Were his parents able to give you any additional information? something / someone drove him to this, and (i assume the rest of you are with me) if whe find out what / who it was, we will collectively nail it's / his / her ass to the wall.

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Fuck

PS - pardon my language. bit this is fucked up.

[Jjason]

Damn...

I'm not very good at expressing emotion, especially over the internet but.. he'll be missed.

[James Stone]

This is terrible. Kevin was responsible for the near destruction of my brand new flatscreen monitor when he posted one of the funniest lines I have ever read in my life, causing much coffee to be spat at the monitor in a outrageous outburst of laughter. Kevin you will be missed.

[Econjen]

I'm devastated He was like, one of my best friends. If stranger-danger internet people can become that. I loved that stupid asshole I'm going to miss his idiotic ramblings and his crazy ability to make me laugh at myself with a one-line zinger. And who's going to laugh at my crappy drawings, and point out how it's a good thing numbers speak to me because I wouldn't get far on my prolific use of stick figures

When I was younger and upset, I would go out into the woods behind my parents' house. I'd dig through the leaves until I found a big stick and bang it on the tree trunks. I liked the sound of the cracking wood echoing in the otherwise quiet place. It always made me feel better, for some reason. I don't think they let you do that in the city, though

Dammit, Kevin. Why didn't you say something more?
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[Dante]

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I don't know what to say. All signs pointed to this but I guess I didn't believe that it would actually be true.

Kevin said he was always honest with us, so I owe it to him to be honest right back. I thought he was a tool. I thought he was self-centered and short-sighted and tempermental. Maybe the fact that he was an artist gave him license, but simply put, he rubbed me the wrong way. However, I am deeply sorry that he felt the need to do what he did, because no one should ever feel that desperate. To the end, I wish that he had shared with someone, anyone. This only makes me more resolved to figure out what the hell is going on here.

[RavenWolf]

I'm devastated and very concerned about what's happened here... everytime I hear about someone committing suicide I always get chills because there was a time in my life when I attempted to do just that, but I managed to fight through it with the help of a lot of people and as a result here I am now trying to solve these mysteries... Kevin was a very hilarious and kind hearted guy who I often got a kick out of on these boards reading the things he wrote and it saddens me that he is no longer here with us today... Beyond this I'm also very purturbed that this suicide occurred at the end of BA's "10 days" prophecy of sorts... I have so much more to say and so much more to think about but I have to run for the time being... this is something that will bother us all for a while and it's something that I extend all my heart's feelings towards... Kevin you will be missed...

[BlueKindo]

Goodbye, Kevin.

[Tipsila]

Dammit, Kevin. Why did you have to go and kill yourself? What was so terrible that you couldn't live? You had more people now to talk to than ever -- all of us. Why couldn't you talk to us? We would have listened and tried our best to understand. We would have done anything we could have to help you. Didn't you know that? Maybe it didn't matter. This sucks.

(and as I haven't said it yet today: Fuck.)
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[Sidtheduck]

FUCK THIS!!!!

I don't believe it!! It can't be (yes, I am well aware that denial is one of the stages of grief, but c'mon!). Kevin, you were such an inspiration to me. I didn't know you all that well (but I really wish that I had) and was too busy lately to get in touch with you more, but son of a bitch you always made me laugh. Sure, he rubbed some people the wrong way, but he told it like he saw it and didn't hold nothin' back.

dammit . . . I still don't believe Kevin went all Dead Poet's Society on us. Someone (or something) made him do this. We'll find out what happened. Keep it real, Kevin (wherever you are).



. . . fuck



EDIT: Thank you, Marie, for letting us know. I'm sure it must be hard for you and the rest of the pre-crash sentries. If there is anything we can do, let us know.
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[Bluefire]

Kevin...will be missed. - I really hope nobody else considers taking the same path, we're all here for anyone if they ever do.
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[Harlequin]

I want to express my sorrow for your loss of a friend now. And please undersatnd that any questions I ask about this, in days to come, are not callous. I am occasionally incapable of seeming sympathetic, but I am, and I am very, very sorry this occured.

[Taluria]

Oh. my. lord...

Guys... I probably won't be on here for a while. I've got to gather my thoughts... I'm really starting to wonder.
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[JimmyMcForum]

Goddammit.

My condolences to his friends. If anybody needs an ear, consider mine open.